Byond account and character name: HzDonut. Jesse Soemmer as a main.
Discord ID (if applicable): HzDonut
Banning admin: JerTheAce
Ban type (What are you banned from?): Server and Discord entirely. Quality Control ban.
Ban reason given: https://imgur.com/a/Fqrn1le
Ban length: Permanently.
Approximate time ban was placed (including time zone): 2017-06-01, 20:07:19
Your side of the story: At the time of the ban, I was pretty ignorant about what was really going on with the admin and player team. The things people tried to tell me either got waved off as "people being salty" or went right over my head at the moment since, from my point of view, I was just surrounded by friends who told me the complete opposite of what the admin team was telling me. Naturally, of course, I believed my friends. Clearly, this wasn't the best move as their attempts at just soothing me when I came to them distressed inadvertently lead to me taking their words as the absolute truth, and so a really annoying pattern of me being a dick and then not understanding why people thought I was a dick began.
Why you think you should be unbanned: Like I said above, I was genuinely oblivious to anything people said or hinted at to me about my poor behavior unless they got really blunt and persistent in telling me what I was doing wrong (Like Ace did before my ban when he was telling me to start actually providing constructive criticism whenever I started talking about something, which I did genuinely try to do). To make matters worse, if they were even slightly rude in how they were telling me about my behavior, I quickly would turn hostile and dismiss anything they said as hurtful lies instead of thinking to myself that maybe there was some truth to their words. Hell, I didn't even think my ban was anything other than "made up bullshit" until people approached me in DMs after to calmly explain the situation, at which point I then immediately jumped onto my computer to post the first appeal. Honestly, I was trying my absolute best there to convey my extremely conflicted and jumbled emotions, and it absolutely flopped due to me wording things in the most douchebaggy way possible. I ain't going to sit here and correct everything I said there though, just understand that I was still extremely confused and didn't truly understand the situation at all back then, now after talking with people more I actually get what was happening: My perceived "totally fine, if a little rude" behavior was actually much, much worse than "a little rude" and I was really upsetting people...just at the time whenever I'd go to ask people "Wait am I actually being as rude as they say???" I'd get "No, no, you're being honest and they're the ones who're assholes." Not a very healthy situation to be in, right? Anyways, nowadays I just float between a bunch of servers and never really stir up any trouble, and I've been encouraged to throw another appeal up so here I am. Really, I just want to be able to easily contact some of the friends I ended up leaving behind again, and have a place to retreat to in order to get away from all the antags and chaos for a while to just roleplay and get a bit freaky with people, y'know?
Oh and here's the first appeal if anyone wants to read that: viewtopic.php?f=38&t=1368