Apologies for the delay in getting back to this. I've been out of town for most of the week, and posting anything beyond a sentence or two via mobile is a bad time.
I did say in my previous appeal that I would be responding to some of the points made, and both Joan and Nerdass are urging me to do so again.
A large number of the concerns that were raised were due to my temper- the fact that when I lost it, I tended to lash out, and gods damn anyone who got in the way of it. I've mellowed out quite a bit in the months since I was banned- I've stopped playing SS13 quite as much as I was before. I kind of realized after the fact that this game was more or less my only social outlet for the longest time, and that had me taking it more serious than it deserves. It's a game. Everyone here, in round or in the community, is here to have a good time- and I was souring that for a large number of individuals due to my inability to keep that in mind. As far as more specific examples, however:
R1f73r wrote:I remember when I was still new to the server, a chemist, on about my third day or so of playing chemist, there was someone dying outside of the station at the surface level. I had played and learned just enough to know what chems to take, how to defib on this server, and give medical treatment. I heard about it, got my gear together, and was trying to make my way to the surface level via elevator, not even knowing about the function to put it in the emergency mode. I made my way down, and asked a simple question I didn't know the answer to in this time of duress. "Where is Surface EVA?"
I had never had any reason to go to surface EVA, as I had spent almost the entirety of my time playing chemist. You, and someone else had done nothing but berate me the entire time that I was trying to find it, asking over comms where it was. The person had died, resulting in me feeling even worse that I had failed, just to be met with you berating me even more alongside the other person. I did resleeve them, and sent them on their way, but I almost quit Vorestation because of that, it was a brutal beatdown of words I just didn't deserve, especially when a day prior you had threatened to jail me for trying to learn how to resleeve by standing in on a resleeving process, calling it disrespect to the dead.
I remember this, and have remembered it for quite a while, because that wasn't the kind of community I wanted to be apart of. It took some people reaching out to me and showing me that the server is a great place with kind people, to not give up. I know you've improved a bit, but I have seen this condescending tone be persistent in what you do, not just here, but on other servers as well. I see what you've posted, and I just don't see that you've improved in the year or longer that I've known you. I cannot, in good faith or conscience, support you coming back, not as Phi Vietsi. I've seen you on other characters not nearly be as much of jerk, but the tone still remained the same. Condescending.
No Support
I have no excuse for this, and offer no justification for it other than that I'm deeply and truly sorry. I do recall the incident you mentioned, but I don't recall any of the context surrounding it- though that doesn't matter given the impact it had. I damn near drove you away from the server, and that's unacceptable. I'm glad you decided to stick around, and that you've found the server better than the first impression I gave of it.
Thranos wrote:Gonna be real here, this appeal is literally your old appeal, two short lines of added text, and all the replies from your old appeal bundled together.
That in itself is a little ehhhhh, considering your whole appeal hinges on "I've changed" and "I'll do better", but your appeal itself hasn't and isn't.
I get that the ban reason and other details aren't going to change, but if you've (as claimed) "thought about how you'd been acting" and plan to "do better", don't you think that warrants more than two short lines?
Maybe a little XYZ of how and why you dropped the ball, so as to show that you've reflected and understand what you did to earn this ban? At all?
That being said-
For the sum of like, two years, I watched you powertrip wildly, attempting to strong-arm people into agreeing with you or rabble rouse and rumor-mill to make them quiet or even leave if they didn't.
You were, in easily two out of five of every posts, patronizing, condescending, cliquey and elitist. People resented you. A lot. And, I think, many still do.
Such as me.
No support, with a suggestion of charban of Phi Vietsi, and/or a full command, sec, and exploration ban if the ban is to be lifted
I completely agree with the recommendation of a security ban. Once I moved to Citadel, I spent most of my time playing engineering. I recently stepped back into security for... a week or two, perhaps? And it's just... I don't enjoy the conflict it brings. It brings out the worst of me, and I don't enjoy that. Much better to stay away from the roles that oft invite chances for conflict, and be able to say "That's not my problem" and leave it at that. Outside of that point, I addressed how I dropped the ball above, and very much understand that the ban was placed due to my tendency to seek out drama, conflict, and arguments. I incited them, half the time, and didn't have the sense of mind to just... walk away when I knew I was getting upset.