by Dhaeleena » Sat Mar 28, 2020 5:25 pm
Am i surprised? Not really. I have been here a long time like many other people have, I may have not been here since day one but been here since 2014, Back then i was a 18 i was a shithead and a very toxic player, Ace, Demi, Kisuke and others likely remember it very well tbh. I didn't like Ace back when i joined but i was a shithead so he was the one punishing me and that's fair. I grew i became a better person, a better player, i grew as part of the community enough i eventually became an Admin. I remember Ace really REALLY didn't want me becoming an admin, But i remember him surprised at my progress and seeing me in practice as staff. Still those years not changed how i saw Ace, I had become an admin here specifically to make Vorestation a better place and every step of the way it felt like Ace was setting fire to the entire staff team progress on bettering things every few months. It was always like that, months of inactivity from Ace, Then he'd appear cuz he wanted to do some big event, change rules, kick people out, scramble things to his liking and disappear yet again. At first i did my best to enforce Ace's rules and policies, But not even he could follow them as id follow his words for months and he'd come back and completely forget what he had said or done months ago. I really never had any problems with the rest of staff, I only ever had problems with staff when it came down Ace's wishes VS what i thought would make more sense, Honestly at one point i just started to completely ignore any and all policies changes from Ace unless i saw a great majority of staff also enforcing them. It really felt like when Ace wasn't around there whole admin team was more harmonious until it was scrambled again. Ace you have always been VERY stubborn, Your idea is your idea and no one was allowed to touch it or go against it and being honest when i was part of Staff i always feared of speaking against you and being kicked out. In any case eventually i retired from staff, I wasn't mentally stable at the time of my departure and i was tired of dealing with the same ol struggle and back and forward of the server. Mind you, Not all bullshit is Ace's fault, I mean blaming Ace on all the bullshit that happens on the server would be silly, But ultimately the usual Admin stress, Plus having to deal with shit policies and rules i didn't agree with made me leave. So i sat down, I played every now and then and started to honestly 'wait' until you either started to do things better or straight out left, Ace.
I never liked you but i respected you enough to be on your Staff and work together to better the community i grew in.
Nowadays i just sit on the discord and chat with the friends i made along the way because actually playing station is painful.