by rotago » Fri Sep 27, 2019 12:37 am
I've known, talked with, and associated with Apos for the better part of two years. I enjoyed Apos for a number of reasons. From their adoration of my characters, their reinforcement of me and how I act whenever we talk, to their willingness to help me with deving stuffs. But even as someone I'd like to call a friend, I can't say even I haven't been on the receiving end of some of Phi's rather problematic behaviors. While I lack logs or pictures or even dates of incidents, I can solidly say Apos, you are a bully. I see it in the way you talk about others, I see it in voice chat when you bring up issues you have with how other people play and interact, I see it when you don't get your way, or when you don't enjoy the opinion of another. And it's not even just large issues, it's compounded with many incidents of small aggressions towards me and others. I have tried to tell you to stop in voice before, only to be told "What? What was that? That's what I thought." and shut out of what I would have said.
Seeing a friend should make me feel good, giddy, excited to interact with them. But Apos, you give me anxiety. Whenever you speak with me, I'm always too scared to speak up against some of the awful things you say. I'm too scared of retaliation, and I'm too scared of causing a fight between you and anyone else who has had an issue.
I've been "Friends" with a lot of bullies in the past. They're aggressive, they shut down dissenting opinions, they take the spotlight and run with it. Apos, I wish I could say that I support your appeal. But you are aggressive, retaliatory, and consistently stir up trouble and discomfort.
You need to change a lot. And I don't believe you've made that change in such a short period of time. If you can show, list, and explain how you've changed and bettered yourself, in let's say, two to three months from now, I could see myself supporting you. But as it is now, you have no support from me.
Just be better. Please Apos.
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