The ban reason (which you can view by trying to log in) is
ADMIN LOG: PontifexMinimus/(Sam Michels) has added a PERMABAN for meowcii with the reason: "Tried to kill themselves. Twice. When confronted they just went #34They felt suicidal#34. Feel free to appeal when you have read the rules and know why you shouldn#39t do that." to the ban database.
Some photo evidence.
I would appreciate if you actually fill out the ban appeal format correctly considering it just made it harder to find it in the logs when you don't give any ckey, for example.
Did you read the rules about suicide and why you should not do it?