Byond account and character name: Kazkin [Character not applicable]
Discord ID (if applicable): Kazkin#6751
Banning admin: MrSignMeUp
Ban type (What are you banned from?): Server and discord
Ban reason given: https://imgur.com/b3Wsedq
Ban length: Permanant
Approximate time ban was placed (including time zone): 03/21/19, 9:12 EST
Your side of the story:
The result of this ban has more to do with an argument between me and Resh that was admittedly handled very poorly by both sides. Before I go into the details of that I need to give the background to the incident. As likely most admins have seen awhile back my primary character, Ahzrukhal Ahkeen, had been character banned and my appeal denied. After the event I had spoken with Apos, also known as Phi Vietsi and Mewchild on byond, a great deal and at length and decided to move Ahzrukhal over to CitRP and continue her story and play there.
Apos and I had come to the understanding at the time, after he posted this in my ban appeal: https://imgur.com/TdcA2ru that our friendship was over. Not with spite mind, during this time I understood his reasoning and while hurt I was leaving on good terms with him, My only contention then was he used personal events and scenes in the linked post to have reasons for me to stay banned. The time I used the *vomit command was done with Resh when he devoured a monkey, the scene was entirely played up for comedy and Resh told me himself he thought it was funny (as we spoke often while playing another game, Deep Rock Galactic, together). That and a few minor details aside we parted ways on good words, in fact, he told me this: https://imgur.com/2XYR19N
He told me he loved me.
The feeling was returned. I’m an honest man and always have been and while my temper can sometimes cloud my words and judgment nobody who knows me well would describe me as dishonest. As dramatic (or idiotic) as the whole event was I did look forward to having a fresh start at CitRP. Apos had mentioned that Phi also played there but that version had never met Ahzrukhal, so in time perhaps our friendship could be rekindled as the problems we had were dealt with. Or at least, that would have happened if I had not realized that Phi himself was the person who reported me through a mistake in his words, in fact he claims himself to be the one who got Ahzrukhal banned: https://imgur.com/svtBgFG
Now, that kind of betrayal hurt me, Apos and I had been friends for nearly a year and we spoke everyday in voice calls and played more than just SS13 together. We even talked about meeting up IRL once or twice because as it turned out we lived only a few hours from each other and I could easily make the trip down to him, though we both kind of knew it was for a specific less than pious reason. As the above image points out we almost had an IRL sexual relationship. So when I was given this: https://imgur.com/agnZBa6 (notice that the date was 3 days after the character ban) I was naturally both angered and distraught by his actions. As it turns out when I first began playing on CitRP Apos began playing more often as well, in fact I saw him often in character as Ahzrukhal. At the time I thought it was because he still wished to remain friends. As it turns out though he was intentionally going to people in private chats and telling them to avoid Ahz as she was “toxic” and that I was a terrible person. It even went so far as in once incident Phi attempting to have Ahzrukhal demoted from RD and permanently brigged for stopping Phi from beating an engineer he was attempting to arrest as CD. In addition to the linked screenshots I have more from two other individuals who were told similar by Phi that I was “toxic” and “should be removed from Citadel”, however both wished to remain anonymous and asked me not to post the screenshots.
But let me summarize this to be more concise. Apos was a close friend of mine and our characters were even married, we discussed meeting up IRL and while I was not interested in a full relationship we were both keenly interested in a sexual relationship. Our friendship however, soured due to actions in character (a long story) but the gist of it being Apos was tired of Ahzrukhals demands for monogamy and cheated on Ahz, which involved her turning into a huge bitch towards him and others. In fact, the person and mistress Apos was sleeping with was Scarletta, now known as Viesti Scarletta as she took his name not three weeks after Ahzrukhal was divorced (https://imgur.com/Ri1y5kx) This transpired in Apos getting rid of Ahzrukhal IC because he wished to scene with others but did not wish to have a publicly known divorce. This end result was Ahzrukhal’s character ban, though I entirely contend that this ban was justified as at the end of it Ahz acted like a bitch and I played her that way, regardless of any reason IC or OOC.
All of this stuff IC and OOC I was disturbed by and both angered and saddened by because at a time Apos and I were very good friends. I had chatted with him in camera calls, I knew his family, his face, his real name. I was his closet friend and he stabbed me in the back over ERP in a 2D space game. I would have been perfectly content to let this sit regardless honestly, after all, what is done is done and my character ban appeal was denied.
However, a few weeks ago I was given new screenshots that I was asked not to share, ones that drastically changed my feelings on the matter and because of it I considered logging into the server simply to send a vitriolic message to Phi IC from Ahzrukhal via her brother Grigore Constantine. While debating doing this I asked Resh about it as we had been good friends for quite a bit and still played/talked often even after I left for CitRP. Unfortunately, with him not knowing the full context, it quickly turned into a full argument with harsh words said on both side. He did however convince me not to send the message IC and to just let it go as it would be stirring the pot. Sadly, I didn’t state this out of pride and under the assumption I was going to do this he banned me from both the server and the discord. Annoyed, I sent him a message that burning our friendship over something I hadn’t actually done and wasn’t going to do was a poor decision, I then let the situation go.
I give this background to reveal my thoughts and reasoning behind my actions and the resulting ban so it gives better context to my thought process and feelings behind my discussion with Resh that resulted in said ban. I was distraught, angry, and wanting in revenge. However now that time has passed I’ve since calmed and the friends I have made at CitRP who also play on Virgo have asked me to play with them once more on Virgo as they enjoy my company. Equally, Ahzrukhal on CitRP is considered one of the best research directors and has earned a positive reputation as being the nicest, most helpful, and most skilled director. If vouches from CitRP from admins are needed I’d be more than happy to get some to post as how I conduct myself as a player and in-character has been considered immensely positive and greatly appreciated.
Why you think you should be unbanned:
Again, given the above, Apos had done a lot of terrible, underhanded, and downright abusive actions towards me as a player. So much so that he had metagrudged me across another server in an attempt to ruin my reputation there before I could be established. That said, the reason for my ban has to due with our personal issues between me and him that Resh became privy to. At the end of the day the action I was banned for was never actually done and is entirely an issue solely between myself and Apos. I still have friends here on Virgo and some wish to play with me once more here. I have since resolved simply to avoid Apos as his actions, speaking only of the ones I have proof and screenshots of provided here, are far more damning then anything I’m guilty of. At the end of the day our relationship turned toxic and his actions caused me to desire to retaliate because he not only metagrudged me but proved himself far worse than he thought of me. My conversation with Resh was poorly conducted. If I simply hadn’t been so prideful as to refuse to admit he had convinced me this whole situation would have never happened. I said quite a few things I didn’t mean in our conversation such is uncaring about being banned and simply doing the proposed idea out of spite. That idea was motivated by the complicated story you see above and now that time as passed I’ve simply resolved to move passed it.