Byond account and character name: Taco of Anger / Vizeen Garvof
Discord ID (if applicable): .Femto#7008
Banning admin: PontifexMinimus
Ban type (What are you banned from?): Character Ban for Vizeen
Ban reason given: Self Antag Incident - Would have been very much warcrimes.
Ban length: Permanent
Approximate date that the ban was placed (including time zone): 12/04/2021 4:30 PM
Your side of the story: I was playing along with a redspace exploration event. Red-Eyed Shadekin was attacking us and it was a blast. Then when we got to the end I touched an artifact of some kind and it gave me an objective, which I thought was mind control from the beast that was on the ceiling or from the shadekin itself. I didn't get a prompt from the device to indicate anything that I chose to do. PontifexMinimus indicated that the one I chose would have been 'to kill', but Viz wouldn't willingly hurt any of the crew. His character is actually quite protective. But as a player. If I'm being honest I got excited that the gamemasters chose me to help out in the event. I thought the objective was because the exploration team was looting all of the temple. So I came back to station and tried to do the objective which was "Objective #1: Do not allow anyone to escape the station. Only allow the shuttle to be called when everyone is dead and your story is the only one left. You have a very bad feeling about this." I thought the bad feeling indication and misunderstanding where the objective came from meant I didn't have a choice. Plus the Red-Eye Kin saved me at some point, so that reinforced it. I did try to ahelp it to make sure, but when I got powers at random I thought the gamemaster gave them to me.
Why you think you should be unbanned: I don't think I should be fully unbanned from all of the punishments. Maybe even keep the char ban for an amount of time while Vizeen is investigated/evaluated. I don't really wanna antag anymore either. I just have a lot of plot lines going on with Viz and I'd hate for them to end so suddenly because I as a player got over excited and goofed. If I'm being honest that's mostly what it was. I just got pumped to do something different and I thought I had an excuse for Viz to do it, and it not be against his character. I'm not asking to invalidate the incident. Maybe just call it what I thought it was 'mind control' and deal with what people think. I just want to be able to play Vizeen differently now. Take him out of exploration and do medicine or chaplain work. He'd feel intensely terrible for what he did. I fully understand that a lot of people are going to hate him now in-game, and that's alright.
As a player I apologize for the misunderstanding and for getting overly excited to do something stupid. Vorestation is my first in-depth playing through of SS13, and I hopped at the chance to do something like that. Further admission. I did lie about the tesloose. I was going to tesloose, but I didn't intend to do it that early. I was ignorant about what the SMES' did and I didn't want anyone to give my location away. So I just turned them 'off'. To kill comms. Please feel free to message me on discord. I also have my side of server logs if you need them for review.