Byond account and character name: Liquidfirefly. The most notable are Syrina Lynn, Ariana Scol, and Occula Drenn.
Discord ID (if applicable):
Gazer#6403
Banning admin:
Not Available
Ban type (What are you banned from?):
Discord
Ban reason given:
N/A, since it was a discord ban, however the reason was extended and repeated instances of lashing out at staff and other players. Global Rule 6.
Ban length:
Permanent.
Approximate time ban was placed (including time zone):
May 16 or 17th 2018, somewhere between the hours of 11 PM and 2 AM EST
Your side of the story:
Over the year leading up to my ban, I'd become increasingly confident in my ability to see what I thought was best for the community, and I would often judge others on that basis. While I was once staff, and something like that would on a remote scale possibly have been my responsibility, the second that I realized I was persecuting others based on my own ideals is the second that should've stopped. It wasn't. I was subsequently dropped from the admin team for being overtly malicious. After that I simply stopped caring about who I lashed out at, and instead of players, started to direct my anger at most of the headmin team, in addition to the players I was previously unhappy with. All of this was on a basis that they were "making this community worse" In various different ways. This came to a point slowly, rather than with one singular incident. venomous remarks and comments about those I had a distaste for was simply a part of my normal conversation when it came to Virgo. I had no concept of holding such venom back, nor a concept of how that might hurt others. The night I was banned I had insulted a former player who came into the discord for but a moment, and then subsequently and at length argued with someone who called me toxic for doing so.
Why you think you should be unbanned:
I'm not going to say that any of my actions were justified. They weren't. There are a lot of proper channels for me to vent my frustration, and I used none of them, instead opting to vent myself in the open and lash out like a child at anyone I had even a mild distaste for. Asking for another chance might be much after how I've acted towards some of the staff and players here, and how long I'd acted this way, but I still think I should come clean at least once. My ban was justified. I didn't realize it at first, but I realize it now. I don't really expect forgiveness, or the second chance that I want, but I think a lot of people are due hearing me say that I was wrong to do what I did.