by DrYeehaw » Mon Jun 04, 2018 1:40 am
Alright, seeing how this has gone on for now the third time without my input, its time I ought to at least speak my mind and at least try to play ball for the underdog here.
I've known indigo for I'd say about 18 months, ICly I had actually known them far, far longer as they're one of only four folks that actually remember Duke from his really early days. They played a lot of interesting characters and while I didn't interact with most of them, it was still neat to see someone so consistent. We talked some on DM's and the likes, but besides sharing memes, we didn't get to know each other that well at the time.
Then the Aronai thing happened.
Me and another mutual friend (which I think DI knows which one I'm referring to because it hurt them way harder than it did me) suspected that the only reason this came as news to us when it happened was because, being honest, it was one of the stupidest ideas I had ever heard of and we would have stopped it.
A lot of people quit talking with DI after that happened, and I can't say I blame 'em. Being honest initially I stuck around with DI to make sure they wouldn't hurt themselves or something else concerning. They hadn't anticipated the consequences of their actions at the time and it hurt them dearly. In a moment, almost every friend they had had left and who could blame them? It was something crushing for them at the time and honestly it was downright depressing to watch.
I witnessed the first and talked with them on their second appeal, even going so far as to suggest ideas for them on how to pursue getting back in the good graces with the community. But at the time, DI hadn't yet learned from their actions, I felt like I was basically leading a horse to water on the idea of letting it be known they saw what they had done was wrong. Every possible person still seemed like an enemy to them and I'll be honest in a way I haven't even told DI yet, I didn't think you were ready to come back either time. And being honest, had it been up to me I would have said no to you coming back. There was still that element left behind that had yet to learn from your actions and still somehow blamed others for what had happened. That even though what you had done was wrong, it was still someone else's fault.
Then they went off the grid for three months. Being honest it was concerning with how they had been before, I was legitimately worried about if they had done something rash at the time. However, when they came back, it was like witnessing a new person. I know to outsiders and others that what they did was reprehensible, and it was. Had I not witnessed so many others telling them how boneheadedly stupid they were at the time, I would have joined right with them. However, while the distrust and dislike of others has died in their return, one thing hasn't.
Indigo loves this server a ton.
Now I'll be honest, that can mean much of anything. There was a time where I was a fanatic about how incredible this place was and would have practically died for it, but I never had all the tales and stories they had, which feels more akin to listening to your grandfather pull out his old army chest than it does a game you both play. Tales of meeting new people and all the fun times they had still make up a lot of their reminiscing. The "Are you sure this server even has a place for you anymore" doesn't apply for them, because honestly, I think they just miss this place more than anything. And they're fully aware they wont get the same experience. Characters get retired, friends leave and the likes, and times change. But for them, many of their close friends were here, and a few still are. Not to mention, every stranger is just a friend you haven't gotten to know yet. Being able to redeem themselves for one more chance in their eyes might give them a chance to rekindle such a flame, or at least maybe start over. This new indigo is more down to earth, they know they're not going to be getting the same kind of attention as days of old, but they yearn for it, they hunger for it.
I support Indigo coming back. They're not the same person they were a year ago. More calm and collected and actually able to see what they did wrong now, their lesson has been learned with losing contact with a lot of close friends. Betrayal breeds disaster, and they're far from being out of said disaster, but they keep coming back. I ask that you give them one last chance before you throw away the key and lock the door, because there's good in everyone. Im sorry if this hasn't been the most coherent plot structure ever, but take it from me. As someone who has talked with Indigo for the past year, the amount of self improvement has been remarkable, and i'd like for a place like this, where we do our best to not judge what people are into, be willing to offer a second chance to someone willing to fix themselves.
Thank you
Well let me just quote the late-great Colonel Sanders, who said..."I'm too drunk to taste this chicken."